Killing your story before you really begin…
That is how I feel lately. I have been trying for almost a year now to re-write my YA novel. I was in a critique group that over-critiqued to the point where I cut half of my novel! I put it away for more than a year and then took the brave step on working to “fix” it. And why not? It only took my nine years to write it (including all the research)! I get an idea of how to tweak it, get really excited, and then…wham! Today, I had an idea and started working through it how I might change my work to fit the new scenario and in just over an hour I had thoroughly and completely thrashed the idea into oblivion. So, I have two choices: 1) get a new idea and work it to death before even writing a word, like I have been doing, or 2) take the wonderful idea I had and start all over. Throw out the world that I lovingly created–all five races (complete with religion, politics, and culture)–all seven major characters (including protagonist and antagonist). I think it’s time to run away from home (the one in my head) and start fresh. I need to learn to clean out the cobwebs in my creativity and just go for it. What do I have to lose? Well, besides 11 years…but in the end, I think it will be worth it. Don’t you? Maybe I need to have a funeral and bury all my drafts, notes, maps, etc in the backyard (figuratively anyway–I can’t mess up our new yard!). Being a writer certainly isn’t for the faint of heart!